odd

It’s an odd feeling. A little bitter with a generous amount of sadness and a touch of jealousy. Today my sister and her family are in Hawaii. That explains jealousy.

I can see them playing along white sandy beaches and eating dinner while being entertained by hula dancers. Why aren’t I happy for them? Because it means they’re gone. For two. Whole. Years. And I don’t really feel like I got to say goodbye. This is where sadness comes in.

Sure I organized a big send off for them… but that was weeks ago now. Thanks to the internet and all it’s agony we’ve emailed and shared a Facebook wall post now and then. But it’s not enough. I haven’t heard their voices. Wait for it…. Wait for it… yep, bitterness has arrived.

So Pam, Jeff and the kids - if you manage to find internet access amid your island adventures this week… know that I’m thinking about you and praying for your safe travels. Love you all.